that even though the boys are now 13 and 14 years old, I still sneak into their rooms sometimes to watch the blankets move up and down.
Sometimes, if I can’t tell, I’ll place my hand on their back. Just to feel it rise and fall.
I have to reassure myself that they are still breathing.
Like, for instance, just this morning.
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One should always be drunk. That's all that matters; that's our one imperative need. So as not to feel Time's horrible burden; one which breaks your shoulders and bows you down, you must get drunk without cease.
But with what? With wine, poetry, or virtue as you choose. But get drunk.
And if, at some time, on steps of a palace, in the green grass of a ditch, in the bleak solitude of your room, you are waking and the drunkenness has already abated, ask the wind, the wave, the stars, the clock, all that which flees, all that which groans, all that which rolls, all that which sings, all that which speaks, ask them, what time it is; and the wind, the wave, the stars, the birds, and the clock, they will all reply:
"It is time to get drunk!
So that you may not be the martyred slaves of Time, get drunk, get drunk, and never pause for rest! With wine, poetry, or virtue, as you choose!"
Charles Baudelaire




















Aw … that’s sweet.
No, once they hit teenage, I didn’t sneak into their rooms. First, their rooms were nasty places, and secondly, I didn’t know what I might find! LOL!
I did occasionally have to wake one of them for something, and then I did treasure the moment of watching them sleep – especially as the older one, right up till when he left home (long past twenty years old) still slept just as he did as a toddler: bum up in the air, arms by his side, and face mashed into the pillow. So funny to see a great hairy adolescent do that, when your memory still holds their three year old, fresh, dewy self in the exact same position.
Not sure which is cuter, really! LOL!
Hahaha! To both of you, Kimberley and Jay! Absolutely precious! Yes, I still do the same – and mine are 14, 13, and 11. So glad I’m not alone in this. LOL
I couldn’t sneak into Olivier’s room because I would fall over something. I know he’s a bit older than your two. I just check that he’s there – I worry about dead or alive later…