My youngest turned 15 today. Here he is. Isn’t he handsome? I wish he could see what I see when I look at him. His vision is much different from mine and sadly, not at all accurate.  This is how he used to look: He looks up at the camera as he’s speaking and then [...]

Yesterday we had us a thunderstorm. Very unusual for the Pacific Northwest. It rains a lot, but mostly it’s that non committal, drizzly, boring rain that makes you want to shoot yourself because it’s just enough to be a bother, but not enough to be exciting. Yesterday was exciting. I sat on the back porch [...]

I’ve been trying to make myself come here. I get as far as opening the window then I stare at the screen for a bit and finally give up and close it again. I’m just so busy. I’ve got so much going on it’s hard to find the time to sit and post anything worth [...]

Tonight while getting ready for bed the saddest thought crossed my mind. I had a sudden, unexplained vision of Kaileb as a baby, scooting across a hardwood floor, one sock on and a diaper. That’s it. Nothing else. His hair was much blonder and he still had chubby little baby cheeks. He was maybe just [...]

My heart is breaking. It’s shattering into a million little pieces and I can’t, for the life of me, stop it. My Roofie Doof has died. We didn’t even know he was sick. One day he was fine. Just his normal, fluffy self. The next he was hanging on for dear life, ill, with a [...]

Here’s where we are, as a society. We absolutely don’t question the loss of the most basic human kindness and civility. It’s now the exception rather than the rule and any evidence of it is met with paranoia and suspicion. If you doubt me, just go to your local airport, hop on a plane and [...]

Right now it’s all about whether or not America is more sexist or more racist. Will it be a woman or a color that brings us down? Both are equally detestable. Neither very palatable. Not like those that are colorless, lacking in ovaries. What we know for sure is we don’t want another Republican. Not [...]

Maybe it’s the steady, thunderous ticking of my biological clock. What else could it be? My life is certainly far from devoid of meaning. I’m working a full-time job, maintaining a full-time relationship, and mothering full-time boys. If anything, I’m a bit overextended as it is. What, then, can the matter be? I just got [...]

my mom always had enough bowls. that’s what gets me most, you know? i have struggled my entire adult life to find the right balance of bowls for this house. when i was growing up there were always enough bowls of just the right size for whatever it was we needed. popcorn. cereal. ice cream. [...]

Oh man, I stumbled on this site today and let me just say to you right now, nothing takes me back to twelve years old like little pieces of paper that smell like things. i’m all walkin’ around my house with strawberry stuffed up one nostril and rancid onion up the other. good with the [...]